I told my girlfriend today that I'd like to end our relationship. I told her that her communication issues seem to run deeper than anything she can figure out without additional help, and that I too have things that I'd like to work on. I also told her that I've been feeling trapped in my thoughts, and that I feel that we're ill matched. And although it's cliche, I loved us when we were friends, and that I'd like to go back to that, even if it takes time. So for better or for worse, at least I was honest. Until today, I didn't realize how breaking up with someone could hurt you as badly as being broken up with. It makes me look at my past relationships differently as well...makes me wonder what my ex was feeling when she decided to let us go.
And although I know I'll feel the absence more and more before I move beyond this, I have to admit that I'm feeling one emotion much stronger than any other...
Relief.
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